你

你的眼睛

你的眼神

你的鼻子

你的呼吸

你的笑容

你的腼腆

你的温柔

你的傻气

不受控制，在我脑海里不停上演...

'找不到真爱，会一直寂寞...

我会幸福吗？

... ...在什么时候... ...？

爱，只活在童话里？'

勇气 爱

原来不想 可以满脑都是
想的时候 却被理智阻止
这就是人性的弱点？
要等到什么时候人才不会有矛盾的时候？
又一个如果，
换个角度来看，
如果能够控制，
那就不叫爱情？
那可以选择不爱吗？
还是我根本没有资格说不爱？

'爱情需要勇气'
我承认我没有!
所以,
爱情不属于我...

真心喜欢一个人，
千万不要没有自信！

我...真的没有...
即使我多么渴望...

最后一次

最后的微笑
最后的讯息
最后的碰见
最后几时才能完？

问自己 问内心 舍不得
要放手 这决定 不容易
要放开已不是第一次了

你也有想要的生活
想要的家庭
我...?
不能自私!


[曾聽說有許多戀愛　沒有結果
卻剩傷心者感慨　令我都刻意避開
讓我獻出全部熱愛　全面喝采
是我不敢相信真愛
但你不惜真心真意對待
竟令我再感到意外
如果今天將失去　眼前的一切
剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替
是我生命里的一切
如早知今生跟你　有幸可相愛
在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道　是可一不可再
下半生準我留住你　一直相愛 ]


[ 如果这首歌将要对你唱最后一次
如果将这种感觉对你说最后一次
情感会更加真挚连呼吸也不可以
犹如堤缺后无法停止
如果这眼睛将要对你等最后一次
如果将这生恋爱对你爱最后一次
时光合更加真挚回忆都更加精细
然而为你为难过不已
不只这一次 ]

文笔无法满足宣泄的欲望
只好凭歌寄意以满足思想

Chinese NIU Year 2009

[delayed post]

*p/s Xmei: I'm blogging in eng! =)


-Chu 1-
well...dunno how ppl felt this new year?
I felt random....boring in the daytime...
'WILD' in the night time...
haha...many frens went back hometown....
as in peoples which used to be around me like Nicky and Sarah....
they went back to Ipoh this year with their boys...
obviously, I never follow them although many frens follow them back to ipoh....
coz I'm lazy...and mom don really like it...

1st day CNY not at home bla bla bla..... my brother which 1st time exposed here...lol

1st day of CNY, went to temple as usual...
pray...Pray...PrAy...and PRAY...
but this year...due that mom is not working...

me and Wong Mama...

she followed us...me and 2 monkeys...
2 monkeys are my cousins...Wallace and Gik Mun...
after praying...is ONLY 3pm....
shit...is very boring...and NO one date me...=(
haha...so we 3 went to SS2 wateva K-Box Party have singing session...
is not that cheap...but 3pm sing til 9pm...for RM30t++ is ok la....
haha....of coz we never sing until dat late....
we left around 7pm...

Gik Mun, Wallace and Me...

in tis few hours...we are not singing....
but SHOUTING and DANCING...
I danced..because there are many club songs they played....
and even we wanna sing some emo soft songs...
Wallace will be translating all to Hakka...
so we cant really sing....me and Gik Mun is laughing all the way back...
Many singers will be sad...coz their songs were destroyed by us...
I salute Wallace because he can even quickly translate all the lyrics to Hakka
and follow the music and RAP! is RAP!!!
Having stomach ache after laughing few hours inside this NO ONE k-box...
and the facial expression is already cacat....
Night, thought of waiting my dear theng come fetch me out for yum cha...
and called Grace along....because she is BORED like me...
well....wait til neck aso long...
11 sumthing called up...theng says his bf slept d...
so CANCEL....
well... ... ... *speechless*
jus a very 'plain' day for me...
All this while, Fang and Grace is juz like me...BORED...
and we called each other...but we hardly meet up.....
bcoz we don have CAR...
this particular day....I felt I really NEED a CAR BADLY!
oh ya...end up....I slept after theng's call...
is very unwillingly moving myself into the bed...=(

-Chu 2-
trying my best not to wake up too early....
because I predict my plans are all working at night...
but failed...bcoz staying at my grandma's house...
very noisy...I mean thee kids especially....and the Aunties....
and woke up by one call...
Mr Soon and Joee...
was asking wat time I will go their house Bai Nian...
I said: 'wow, so early..is 10 sumthin 11 now...I thought of going at nite..?'
*bcoz last year I went there with fren at nite and we 38 til 3 or 4 am...
tis yr is too early ba...
but well...I say I will go there asap becoz I waiting my dear Zoe fetch me out....
yea...Soon and Joeee have dinner at 7.30pm....
I realized but just cant remove my minded tat will hang there late...
I'm very COW, I admit...for this time...haha....
after their sweet morning call...
Mr we(wewe) called up...asking wat time am I goin Soon's house too...
eish...I really not sure!....well....I asked Zoe...
she said...5pm....ok lo...need to wait...
from 11am to 5pm....well.."great"~
3pm...Zoe said 7pm...=(
nvm...I can wait...as long as I can go out...
no car...wat to do...=(
but atlast she manage to come fetch me at 6pm...
and we rush to Soon's house...
met up with Ivan, Elson, Xing Ying, and Ken...
Someone is damn great looking...stupid dumb...
not even 2 hours we hang up there...and we gonna leave...
coz...Soon gotta go dinner with Joee's family...
Zoe said 9pm, eeLing ask us to go her house...
ok lo...of coz goin...
btw....me and Zoe stil got 2 hours more to spend....
wherer to go ar? haha...zZz...sienz...
so we went to nearby our high school, got one small mountain...
which can see night view...
chit chat in the car...exchanging our life stories in this little car and the nightview....
went to fetch Fang out too...coz she is too boring at home...
went to eeLing's house and met new frens....
and Played together...
surprisingly...most of all are from same high scholl but not close...
becoz of this nite, we bcame closer..
especially me and eeLing and Christopher...
we are drunk this nite playing this noob lame game...
drunk and we simply kiss each other...eish...
embarassing...haha...
I finally know I cant drink too much....
Coz I will keep asking ppl, am I good looking?
haha...and will spread some of my secrets out....=.='''
kiss...mY GOD...is mouth to mouth....
with Zoe or any other very close fren I can la....
but eeLing and all...not close...
but well...they are very western minded...so...
yea...is ntg for them...juz i felt a bit shy....haha...
but yea...bcoz of this...we hang out 2gether coz we are ppl which can be very CRAZY~
*ngek ngek*

Mr. Soon and Joeewith Joee
with weweElson & Xing Ying

-Chu 3-
got improvements...went out more earlier...
with Zoe, Christopher and eeLing...
we went for movie - <underworld>
erm..I can juz say...is a bit disgusting...
personally don really like this kinda movie...hehe...
but nvm la....happy then ok...=)
after movie...thought of going Sarah's house bcoz she asked us to go b4 CNY starts....
and every new yr, the 3rd day...
but well...wait her until we neck long...
went to Murni, slowly eat and digest our food from 6 something to 8 something...
drive to her house....nearly reach and she said she haven reach...
they are stil coming back from Ipoh...
we really NEARLY reach...2 more roads to go I think...
but well....we drive back to NZX there...
to Christopher's house..and have another movie again...
<> guys...mY favourite....
the 3rd time I watch this...it is still *NICE*~
after thee movie is nearly 12 midnite...
yea...is 'safe' to go Sarah's house d...coz she msg and said she reached....
went her house...not in the mood of gambling...so I online...
banyak orang her house....all late ghost...
left her house at 3am...
and my day ends here....

Zoe, EeLing, Christopher..

Christopher, Zoe & Sheh...

-Chu 4-
boring at home until 5 something....
preparing myself to MOS...
with very very random ppl like theng theng~
mY GOD...
I think tis will be the very 1st time and last time she club with me...she said...
she really have this bIg longkang Xiao Mei and Carina~
you guys will kill her...haha...
a very sweeet and warm day with theng, Zoe, Christopher and eeLing...
me and theng dance til sweat like shower at the dance floor...
went back to the VIP room to rest...
but we start chit chat..
I mean 'pillow talk' with her....dance a while...sit again...
our stories + VIP room +Vodka...
one word - 'Jeng'~
overnite her house...
yea...still chatting until 6am morning...
mY God~ we are like Aunties~

Happy Chinese New Year peoples~